"I want that, now let me sabotage it"
Is a thing I am hearing a lot of lately and am here to issue a hard no on that
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the idea of receiving and being open to receiving, and how so many declare what we want, but then it arrives, we convince ourselves it somehow isn’t right and blow up the whole thing. I have especially seen a lot of this in creative spaces. And, look, art is tender work, I get that. But, I also know that when what we want begins to arrive because we made it happen, we ought not shift to skepticism or criticism but to an open mind, if not outright yes-ness. Trust yourself. Trust you can proceed and blow it up later if needed. Trust that you have autonomy that can’t be taken from you, only given.
So, today, write about what the hell it is you want, and about where you might be likely to sabotage it once you make it happen, or perhaps where you might already be sabotaging yourself in this way. It’s not an exercise in judgment, but of awareness. Don’t beat yourself up about it, just see it and name it and decide if you want to do better. And, if you like, you can even write about some strategies you might lean on when the lure of creative self-sabotage calls to you. Let’s go. Let’s do this.
