Why do you do what you do?
Freewrite on this question today, and each time you believe you have arrived at an answer, peel back another layer and keep digging. Imagine the way a child might relentlessly question something:
Kid: why do you paint pictures?
You: Because I like painting pictures?
Kid: Why do you like painting pictures?
You: Because it relaxes me.
Kid: Why does it relax you?
You: Because it brings me joy.
Kid: But why????
Be that kid to yourself and keep interrogating your own answers until you arrive at something surprising or profound.